Saturday, February 17, 2018

I Am A Girl Mom

wHat is lovE mISsions

"LOVE GOD with all your heart
and your neighbor as yourself."

The Torrans Tablet 

I have not told many people this. It hurts too much. In July of 2014,I miscarried a beautiful baby girl. It was early in the pregnancy. We named her AnnaClaar Jane. 

 And January of 2015,the same thing happened. A daughter. Also at the beginning of being pregnant. Her name is Christina Amyleah.

 As hard as is it to admit, Victoria Angeleia and Rosalyn Mercy went to Heaven,August 2016 and April 2017. Always in my heart. And on my mind.

   Girls are a part of me. Girly is my DNA. GOD gave me daughters and sons. Gladly,I raise my beautiful boys to love,honor,and respect women.

Maybe I will miss my gorgeous girls forever. Miss the chance to grow up with daughters. Miss the mini me. Miss seeing what they act and look like. Miss having a best friend.

But I will keep trying to be a calm,caring,kind,kooky mama,most of the time. I am not a tom boy mommy. Dresses,skirts,elegant hair styles,boots,yoga pants,and pink are my jam. However,I do enjoy hugs,tickles,kisses,cuddles,
reading,swinging,and slides. And I will bring up each of my sons'sweet,stubborn,silly,strong personalities.    


Have you had a darling daughter,special son,or blessed baby pass away? We feel your pain. Or are you not able to have a child? I am so sorry. Did adoption or foster care fall through,like it did for us? 

Please feel free to tell me your story,so I can pray for you. You can email,message,call,or text 719-571-0457,if you ever need to talk. I am also here for single mothers,your miracle 
babies,and little 
children in other countries. Please be praying for me as I grieve for my girls. We all need each other. 

Love,Amy,Annie,Christie,Torrie,and Rosie Torrans

Missionaries to the broken hearted.

Because my spirit is broken,too.