wHat is lovE mISsions
"LOVE GOD with all your heart and your neighbor as yourself."
The Torrans Tablet
"I'm sorry, I can not find a heartbeat."
Two different doctors look at me sadly after trying to find our pre-born Baby's heart beat with a doppler. I am four months pregnant. It seems like our tiny angel has died. The office will schedule an ultrasound. I will have to give birth to a still born Baby.
Here Is Some Hope From GOD
Has your hope ever died? Being without hope is like being without a heart beat. You feel like you have stopped breathing, eating, drinking, and living. But here, GOD is still there. It does not seem like it, I know; HE knows that, too.
From the time I was four years old, I prayed that JESUS would give me a Baby Girl someday. When my husband and I were engaged, we wanted to have healthy girls and boys after we were married. We were blessed with a beautiful baby boy. After learning our second child was also a sweet son, we asked GOD to please give us a daughter the next time we were expecting. I thought this was the Little Girl I dreamed of.
Here Is Some Hope From Me
The technician tries to find a beating heart. Suddenly she says, "It is low, but it is thumping!" The Baby is not moving much, but the tech is able to measure a tiny human. We are so grateful our Darling is alive, but I have contractions, high blood pressure, and have to be on pelvic rest and bed rest. Our prayer is that our Baby will come normally after at least thirty five weeks, but we are unsure.
Let me give you some hope. I am scared, sad, stressed, and silent. I am also hiding, holding on, hugging, and hearing. They go together, Dear One. Despair and Desire.
Here Is Some Hope From You
You might feel there is no hope in you; I do. I feel worthless, wimpy, and weak. But we are on earth for a reason. The CREATOR made you, saved you, and loved you. Your soul can have a relationship with HIS.
How can we have hope? There is some hope to be had in HIM, in my story, and in your life. You can also help others hope again. The hope of HEAVEN, your journey, and their fragile faith.
Here's to hoping.
Love, Amy, Joey, Mikey, Jonny, and Baby Torrans
Missionaries to the Hopeless, Homeless, and Helpless
For that is what we are
Without HIM
